So...Do you trust me?

This past Wednesday night was Family Night Supper, and I made my apple crisp for the first time this season. How much do I love apple crisp? Very much. Anyway...on FNS nights, we break from the usual lesson with the kids and either sing the whole time or go to small groups or play or whatever. This past Wed., we sang some Christmas carols in preparation for our Christmas program. We only had 5 kids, so it was kinda relaxed. Well...after about 20 minutes, the kids were tired of singing, and so we did a short lesson. It was something I had done with the 4-6 year olds, but since it might be new to them, I decided to share.
I'm sure everyone has participated at some point in time in a "trust fall." You know..."close your eyes, hold out your arms, and just fall back, trusting that someone will catch you." Well...I asked for a volunteer. (About 10 hands went up. Remember, there's only 5 kids.) I asked my volunteer if he trusted me. "Yes." So I tried to get him to fall back. Um...no. About 15 degrees into the fall, he started stepping back and just leaning. So...We discussed that we can SAY that we trust someone, and we can THINK that we trust someone, but our ACTIONs will tell the truth.
What does God say about trust?

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not

lean on your own understanding. In all your ways

acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."

Prov 3:5-6

Then we discussed the fact that it's scary to trust. And sometimes it surprises us to discover that we don't trust as much as we think we do. Nonetheless...God, who is SO worthy of our complete and utter trust, demands it of us.
And what surprised me, I think, most of all during this lesson, is that as I'm teaching, I'm hearing God say, "this lesson is for you." I even told the kids, toward the end of the lesson, that I struggle somewhere between the THINK and the ACTION of trust. It's scary for me, too. I don't stand before them as someone who has learned the lesson and perfected it in practice. I'm still learning and forcing myself to ACT like I trust God. The next morning, I had such hope, as I recited that verse over and over on the way to work. When I am puzzled by things, and confused as to whether I've got it figured out or not, "do not lean on (my) own understanding."
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart."
Right now, that is a truth and command that I must cling to tightly. Actually, it's a common thread throughout my short life. Trusting has always been hard for me. For someone who's had as many sudden, out-of-my-control events in my life, you'd think that trusting was something that would come easily to me. I mean, who better to be accustomed to not being in control? Not so much the case. But God is teaching, and I'm learning.